How Did I get so Lost
By Zhylosa

I keeping asking myself who am I.
So many faces I have shown the world,
Which one is really me? I am...

The little black dress and thigh highs.
A girl willing to let loose and have fun.
Letting the beat of the music be the beat of her soul.
A girl willing to show herself.

How did I get so lost?
Once I had a clear vision of me, when did it blur?
So many faces I have shown the world,
Which one is really me? I am...

The oversize sweatshirt and baggy pants.
A girl hiding behind a mask afraid to show
That she is destroying herself to be what society views a perfect.
Hoping the fa├žade covers her pain.

How did I get so lost?
Once I had a clear vision of me, when did it blur?
So many faces I have shown the world,
Which one is really me? I am...

The vinyl pants, halter-top, and stilettos.
A girl wanting to step out of her stereotype,
To show that there is more to her than what she wears.
Proving that not every perception is true.

How did I get so lost?
Once I had a clear vision of me, when did it blur?
So many faces I have shown the world,
Which one is really me? I am...

The sneakers and athletic clothes.
A girl at home on the court shooting hoops or spiking a set.
In a place were skill and heart proves who you are
Not clothes, money, or social status.

How did I get so lost?
Once I had a clear vision of me, when did it blur?
So many faces I have shown the world,
Which one is really me? I am...

The chaps and boots.
A girl at home on top of a horse
With the wind in her hair and smile on her face.
Being free and able to take her time to reflect.

How did I get so lost?
Once I had a clear vision of me, when did it blur?
So many faces I have shown the world,
Which one is really me? I am...

The PJs and slippers.
A girl happy to be alone.
To sit and read a book or watch TV.
To just be herself with no one around, without the need to be validated.

How did I get so lost?
Once I had a clear vision of me, when did it blur?
So many faces I have shown the world,
Which one is really me? I am...

The suit jacket and skirt.
A girl at work always willing to put in the time and effort to get the job done.
Hoping that she is doing right by the company.
Trying to make a career for herself.

How did I get so lost?
Once I had a clear vision of me, when did it blur?
So many faces I have shown the world,
Which one is really me? I am...

The tank top and slacks.
A girl ready to shop, run errands, or hang out with friends.
Keeping her hands busy with crafts, or playing the keys of the piano.
Dreaming of what is to come.

How did I get so lost?
Once I had a clear vision of me, when did it blur?
So many faces I have shown the world,
Which one is really me?

©2005