How My Habits Destroy My Life
By Zhylosa

I now walk into the darkness,
As my habits destroy my life,
Little do others know,
How my habits destroy my life.

For tears fall from my cheek,
Not form sadness or joy,
For I will not speak,
How my habits destroy my life.

For others believe these habits are gone,
For I don’t let them see,
These parts of my life’s song,
How my habits destroy my life.

I now walk into the darkness,
As my habits destroy my life,
The reasons I wish I know,
How my habits destroy my life.

In silence I scream for help,
Yet this cry is not heard,
For I let no one see or know,
How my habits destroy my life.

As the darkness surrounds me,
I give into my habits,
I only wish I could change,
How my habits destroy my life.

If I try to fight,
I always lose,
For I have no power over,
How my habits destroy my life.

I ask for greatly heeded help,
Yet people don’t believe,
For I am thought as perfect,
How my habits destroy my life.

I fight the tears in silence,
Which I want to keep in,
I don’t want to believe,
How my habits destroy my life.

A single tear shall fall,
For the pain inside is great,
Little does this tear show,
How my habits destroy my life.

The perfect angel exists,
Only in others eyes,
For I’m not an angel,
How my habits destroy my life.

I will show the happy and sweet smile,
That people want to see,
So that I can forever hide,
How my habits destroy my life.

As I fall into my own trance,
I leave reality,
To forever leave behind,
How my habits destroy my life.

I shall close my eyes,
Walk into the darkness,
Which consumes the reasons,
How my habits destroy my life.

I am sorry if you see me sad,
I will try to greet you with a smile,
I wish you could see,
How my habits destroy my life.

Others that do know,
Say just to stop,
Easier said than done,
How my habits destroy my life.

From those who should know,
I keep my secret secure,
For I don’t want them to worry,
How my habits destroy my life.

As I shake in fear,
I wish things would change,
But the fear over takes,
How my habits destroy my life.

As I walk into the darkness,
The darkness consumes my life,
For I will in the darkness continue to fight,
How my habits destroy my life.

As the tears now flood my face,
I hope the pain is washed away,
Yet it is all still there,
How my habits destroy my life.

Now that it is all known,
I feel no relief,
In ways I feel more weight,
How my habits destroy my life.

The pressure to stop is so great,
That I know I will fail,
For only I really know,
How my habits destroy my life.

Drop by drop my anger grows,
For I hate myself,
For not having control over,
How my habits destroy my life.

Forever the darkness consumes me,
Yet I walk toward the light,
I hope that someday,
My habits won’t destroy my life.